NEWS

I've had a rough morning with upset stomach. Trying to eat a little something now. I am so tired, but truly think it is a depression and am grateful that they have increaded my meds to help with that. Too bad it takes up to two weeks to kick in.

Dr. Honeycutt called yesterday afternoon to discuss the next steps. We decided I would go to Boone Hospital on Thursday and have a biopsy of nodes in my back(right side) through a CT biopsy. Not sure what this will mean but less invasive than surgtery. It is outpatient so should be home in the afternoon. We changed my appointment for consultation until Monday afternoon when the results should be in. I am having pain on upper thigh of left leg so scheduled for an MRI next Thursday. PRAYING it heals itself and I can cancel that due to my claustrophobia.

It is impossible to explain to you how I am doing. One minute, I am nearly hysterical, the next very angry, the next grateful that we did the treatments we have already done. I am afraid. I am so blessed to have so many people who love me. The Meyer family and Tony surprised me on Sunday evening for an early birthday celebration. Barb was here yesterday when I received the call and stayed so I could rest. MaryAnne came in afternoon and just held me and prayed. Debbie and Barb were here on Sunday and we celebrated the Lord's Supper together. God has been so good to me and I pray each of you can feel His continual presence in His life.

Saturday, Setember26

God's blessings on each of you. May you feel his love, protection and provision. I am especially praying those things for myself, as yesterday I was told the cancer is back in a lymph nod close to the spine. I was shocked and devastated and am still reeling from this new information. I meet with Dr. Honeycutt next Friday to determine a course of action. Please pray for wisdom and God's guiding on what needs to be done. As you can imagine I am very fragile at this point so pray for my spiritual life, my emotions, and that I may find peace.

SICK/Sept 24

I have been running a fever since yesterday afternoon. I was nauseuos this morning so it was hard to lay still. I had a melt down,putting it mildly. This was supposed to be so easy and it had been anything but. I saw Diane radiaqtion doctor's nurse. She tracked down Dr. Honeycutt and I had to have an exam. She ordered port check, chest x-ray, CBC, then two separate blood cultures, then a CAT scan where I had to drink a quart of cherry tasting stuff. They did tell me if I was getting cick to stop and they went ahead and did the test. I promptly vomited. I am to take a stool culture in tomorrow. And they just called and want a urine culture tomorrow. I am so TIRED.

Pray for all those working with me and that I may feel stronger each day. She also suggested I start seeing my therapist again. Just too much to sort out.

September 17

Praise be to God for a beautiful fall morning. It was breezy and crisp when I left at 7 AM for my appointment. I have now been moved to the first slot of the day which helps me. I was back home in one hour which helps me with my day planning.

Yesterday I saw the doctor and my blood work is good. Still running low grade fever but they can't find a reason, so life goes on. I went to Community Bible Study for the first time and it was great to be back in my special group. They were all so glad to see me and it touched my heart. I had lunch with Barb, Paula and Pat. We shared a lot of laughs and it felt good to be out. It did tire me a little so came home and rested for a short while.

This week I received an inspiring encouragement from a sister in Christ that I have never met. She too has fought sarcoma and has been a strong prayer warrior on my behalf. She encouraged me and filled me with a Godly perspective of what I am feeling right now. I felt engulfed in love and support. It fascinates me how God sends His earthly angels to touch our lives when we are at our weakest. Praise be to God for this special woman. May you bless her life with health, joy and peace in You.

September 15

Praise be to God for a new day and a new beginning with Him. I am feeling better today. The blood work was all normal, so they think I am just picking up a virus. Hope to have more energy and look to tomorrow.

September 14

The fever came back last night. I had dry heaves this morning and am feeling weak. I did do treatment and then was seen by the doctor. He can't find anything wrong but did order blood work. I did not sleep last night so went back to bed when I came home this morning. Just made a cup of coffee and hoping it tastes good and helps with a headache that is lingering.

I continue to offer all this to the Lord in prayer. May I rest in His arms.

GOOD DAY

Yesterday was one of the hardest I have had in a long time. I talked with three people who each in their own way gave me words of encouragement. One suggested I needed to remember that I was human and what I was experiencing was very normal. One asked if I had taken any anxiety meds and of course I fight that. One suggested I allow myself to be in the moment and not run away from it. I prayed and took half an anxiety pill and nausea STOPPED. What does that say? I am feeling mach stronger today. I have done some yard work, cleaned bathroom and done vacuuming. I have had a salad and sandwich for lunch and it tasted good. I laughed as I read a special card from my CBS family. God is good.

Thank you for all your words of encouragement and prayers.

September 10

God's blessings to each of you. May you encounter Him as you faithfully live out His call to you.

Yesterday it took me 2 hours to mow the yard. I am still having some nausea but thought I wanted to try and keep myself busy. It felt good to be outside and in the fresh air. I have a mole in the back yard so need to move some dirt this weekend.

Today, I was sick when I got up but am doing better now. Treatment went fine. I did see doctor Tuesday and they ordered a UA culture which was fine. If I am not feeling better tomorrow I will see doctor again. I really think it is psychological. I am still dreading walking through the door everyday. I pray for God's peace and that is the only way I can make myself go in there. I am shocked and disappointed in myself for not being able to pull it all together. Chemo was so hard and I made it. I can do this too.

Labor Day

Good morning to you! I have three loads of laundry going and would like to do my bedding but will see when the fog lifts so I can hang it outside. Don't have any special plans for the day.

PRAY for me as I am having vomiting, nausea, and abdominal pain with a pretty intense backache. I believe that is in relation to radiation. Will talk to doctor about it this week. I am having a hard time just going into the building everyday. I know it is all in my head but can't seem to get my thoughts straigthened out. The actual treatment is easy but not sure about the rest of it.

Wednesday

I met with Dr. Bryer today after radiation. He was checking vitals and to see how I was feeling. I told him I thought I was going through a period of readjustment to new treatments and he assured me that that was common. No side effects to his point. He will check on me once a week.

I woke up with sinus headache today so have not felt real perky. I just got up from a two hour nap. I am feeling better and hope that continues.