October 13

A new day, a chance for a new beginning, may I use it in obedience to God my Savior. I spent the morning in quiet prayer and journaling. When things get rough I tend to run from journaling. I should know by now that setting my thoughts to words can be helpful, even if my thoughts are not positive. Something about getting it out in writing helps me. My counselor gave me an assignment to release my anger, to own the cancer (surrender) and to find reason to give thanks to God. Because I am a control freak admitting I am not in control of this dreadful disease is almost impossible for me to do. I had so many plans for my future and now am afraid to hope. Pray for me. For each of you who continue to offer prayers for me I give thanks. May God bless you bountifully.